When I Was Finally Able to Explain What Happened
This article discusses childhood trauma, emotional pain, family conflict, and difficult life experiences. Please read with care and pause if needed. NOTE: This is a more expansive version of my original story after some time passed and I was able to process and figure out what the strange experience actually was. In the summer of 2013, during what seemed like an ordinary weekday lunch hour, I was suddenly hit with an intense feeling that something in my life was very wrong. There was no obvious disaster happening in that moment. Nothing dramatic had just occurred. From the outside, my life seemed mostly fine. I had people I loved, a social life, a career that was growing, and plenty of reasons to believe that everything was okay. But inside, something else was happening. The feeling was not subtle. It was not a small worry or passing sadness. It felt like an internal alarm had gone off. Something in me seemed to be saying that I could not keep living the way I had been living. At ...